I feel worn, with a loss of “Inspiration” to share. It’s been hard for me to balance faith, family, running and life lately. Some days I feel like I’m doing so much and nothing all at the same time. Spinning my wheels if you will. It’s like having a plan that never gets fulfilled, or taking one step forward and two back. Has this ever happened to you?
I feel behind in my relationship with God, my half marathon training…my life. I joined a bible study group that is doing “James” by Beth Moore and have failed to do most of the work and missed too many meetings. The two flickers of light for me right now are my January Prayer challenge (which I must admit I have NOT been 100% successful with) and reading “The Purpose Driven Life” by Rick Warren. And yes if you’ve been following me it is taking me forever to get thru it, not that it isn’t
good awesome. That should kind of tell you how life has been lately.
Thank goodness for that book! I read the perfect few chapters these past few nights, about how our relationship with God can sometimes seem so very distant. BINGO that’s me. But it also offered these glimpses of hope
- it happens to everyone
- it might be a “test” to see just how “faithful” you really are
- God is always near even when you don’t “feel” it
So if your going through something similar, let me tell you, you’re not alone. Maybe we can pray for each other.
Therefore I am attempting today, and going forward, to see God in the little things each day instead of reaching for that feeling. You know? I need to take the time to look into my kids faces, remember how much I love them, and what a true blessing they are. I have to realize that even the winter cold and wind serve a purpose that He has planned. Even as the snow falls today and I grumble (a lot) I need to see the beauty in every snowflake. Every snowflake and every individual is special, has purpose, and was made for God’s glory. And maybe that was to draw me in a little closer to Him.
As the cold wind blows, the snowflakes fall.
Crystalized sparkling beauty in every tender flake
each crafted in its own special way.
Gently drifting away from the heavens down to earth.
But as they fall they do not fall away from God,
for each serves a purpose, just as we do.
Now is the time for the snowflake to fulfill its purpose
and bring glory to the Lord,
if only for a short period of time.
Whether it lands and quickly disappears or gathers with others to
bring praise, like a congregation of a church body,
it is all for Him.
Lord let my life whether long or short fulfill the purpose for which you have made me.
Help me to make you the center of my time here, for your glory. Amen